Very Pissed Off.

I'm very pissed off and disappointed with what happened just yesterday morning. I'll just give the facts I've got:

• I was informed by my boss about the event Saturday, July 21 around 4 AM. My boss' boss informed me of the event Saturday, July 21 around 1 AM. Both informed me that the schedule is Sunday, 10 AM.
• I have provided my contact information as soon as my boss's boss had informed me. She said it is so that they could contact me and inform me about the event.
• So that I will not be late, I texted the number of the POC (Point of Contact) at around 10 AM of Saturday so that I will not miss the event.
• POC replied to me 1:54 PM, Saturday July 21, saying "Txt u the details later..."
• So, as instructed, I went to the event on the scheduled date, and no one was there. I texted the POC again, and the POC informed me that the schedule was actually SATURDAY, 10 AM.

Now, these are my questions:

• If the schedule really was SATURDAY, 10 AM, then why did you reply to me at 1:54 PM saying that you will text me the details later?
• Why was there a discrepancy with the schedules? Two bosses (and I was also following the thread) said that it was a Sunday.
• You argued that it was consolidated to the members. You have my contact number, so why was it not cascaded?

This is very infuriating and disappointing. I have filed a complaint about this, and this puts the integrity of the people I am forced to work with on a very low standing. 

Anticipating Euphoria

Tomorrow, I will be doing a work-related activity for 2 hours. I'm going to list the pro's and con's here:

Cons:

• I will not be able to access the internet
• I will not be able to use the time to rest

Pros:

• I will be paid for the whole damn thing
• I will be given free meals
• I will be with an eye candy
• I will be enjoying the entire time oggling in proximity.

I'm so looking forward to tomorrow. I'll update the blog as sson as possible.

Update

I will try my best to update this blog tomorrow. I am still sick with laryngitis, and it's making it hard for me to think and be inspired.

Proximity ~Want to be Close~

"Proximity" is an addicting drug. Once you're deprived of it, you're going to be insane.


Before I proceed, let me clarify that the term 'Close Proximity' exhibits redundancy, as 'proximity' is defined as 'nearness in space'. The correct usage would be "Close, in proximity to."


One of the rules of emotional attraction would be proximity. Humans tend to be attracted to people not only close to them in terms of distance, but how emotionally close they are to the person. One example would be the transition from friends to lovers. Commonly, this would entail a heavy compatibility, having known wants, needs, and dislikes, but there are some who would not push through the relationship and would wish back to just being friends.


Most people fall in love with someone they meet in a place they are commonly available, like in school, the neighborhood, or at work. As they  kept on being visually available, it tends to create some sort of 'attraction'. People would most likely tag it as 'like', but remember to evaluate it first before jumping the gun.


Sudden lack of proximity, after being exposed for so long, can cause someone distress. It is not uncommon that one would express their depression after not being able to be close to someone they like.


One suggestion would be to confront them about it. Discuss this with someone you are comfortable with, or just discuss it with the one you are 'liking'. By then you can evaluate the feeling and put judgement on it. Another would be to 'suck it up' and bear with it. Not a good option, but it's recommended for people who don't want to break or touch anything or for people with not-so-high courage.

Living with Determination

"There's a special level of comfort between two matching soulds. An unbreakable bond of constant support and closeness. It's when a warm embrace feels so right. Or when two hands fit so snugly. It's a feeling that's hard to define but easy to recognize. And when you find that comfort you just know, you'll never let go... Everybody in this world is scared and sometimes, it takes two scared person to do one brave thing: to fal in love."

“Love defies all laws and reason…it defies all facts…whether it’s right or wrong…it makes people bring forth and end life, and it can send the sanest of people crazy with it. It defies every science and feeling. It makes you feel like you can do anything, like you can touch the skies and defy gravity itself.”

Caged Bird

How high do I have to fly so that I could move away from you?

Even if I move away, I would always want to be looking at you from somewhere.

Coz there's no way I can forget you, even if I try my best.

Even if at my wits end, I would just simply look up a the sky,

Just like a small bird inside a cage, staring up at the great big sky.

Looking for a window, looking for a way, wandering aimlessly ahead.

I want to see you right away, just because I love you so.

Even if I want to run away because I'm scared of being hurt.

Even if my wings are torn apart, I would find another way to you.

You would always be my most important person...

...The very person that I love.

The simplest glance,

The simplest smile,

The simplest look that tells me you know I'm here.

The simplest movements,

The simplest moments, 

The simplest phases that sends me over the edge.

The simplest voices,

The simplest whispers,

The simplest sounds that is music to my ears.

Why, oh why, does these simple things so hard to get?

Why, oh why, does these simple things to hard to forget?

You make it hard not to fall for you.

And I just wish that this world of mine I built for you,

Would never be just a cruel paradise of anguish and pain,

But a place that I could escape from and fall in love in peace.

The Longest Dialogue

"You're scared, but I'll be here for you. Please, let me be the one to hold your hand through the way. Let me be the one to stand by your side through the good and the bad. Through the hard times and good times, I'll never abandon you. I know there is little that I can offer you... since I know you hate me. It must be irritating to have to see the one you hate so much each and every day, and if you want, I'll even make it so that you won't have to see my face. You won't have to hear my voice. But I'll stay close by, guarding you like an angel. You

can yell at me, and scold me all you want if it helps you. You can continue to scream the hurtful and painful words to me until there is nothing left to say. I stay. I'll listen. I won't talk back. I'll be like a good and obedient dog tending to my master. Tell me you want to see me struck by lightening. Tell me that you want to see me freeze under the cold snow. Tell me you want to see me whipped until blood drips from my mouth. Tell me that you wish someone would run me over with a car... with a bus... with a truck. Tell me that you want to shoot me with a gun. Tell me that you want to pierce my heart with a stake while I sleep. I'll love it if it's all that you could say to me. It'll be all that you

have to say to me. You don't have to say anything nice to me. You can say whatever you like, and I'll make it all that I need to hear. I won't cry... I won't throw you out. I'll take it. I'll live through all of it. Chastise me with words of hate, and I'll make you everything that I have. You will be my whole world, my cruel paradise of anguish and pain. Just as long as you are near by, I'll be fine. Break me with words that would tear a wild stallion to pieces. Stay with me. I'll worship you until the day God judges the world. You will be all that I have."