Update

I will try my best to update this blog tomorrow. I am still sick with laryngitis, and it's making it hard for me to think and be inspired.

Proximity ~Want to be Close~

"Proximity" is an addicting drug. Once you're deprived of it, you're going to be insane.


Before I proceed, let me clarify that the term 'Close Proximity' exhibits redundancy, as 'proximity' is defined as 'nearness in space'. The correct usage would be "Close, in proximity to."


One of the rules of emotional attraction would be proximity. Humans tend to be attracted to people not only close to them in terms of distance, but how emotionally close they are to the person. One example would be the transition from friends to lovers. Commonly, this would entail a heavy compatibility, having known wants, needs, and dislikes, but there are some who would not push through the relationship and would wish back to just being friends.


Most people fall in love with someone they meet in a place they are commonly available, like in school, the neighborhood, or at work. As they  kept on being visually available, it tends to create some sort of 'attraction'. People would most likely tag it as 'like', but remember to evaluate it first before jumping the gun.


Sudden lack of proximity, after being exposed for so long, can cause someone distress. It is not uncommon that one would express their depression after not being able to be close to someone they like.


One suggestion would be to confront them about it. Discuss this with someone you are comfortable with, or just discuss it with the one you are 'liking'. By then you can evaluate the feeling and put judgement on it. Another would be to 'suck it up' and bear with it. Not a good option, but it's recommended for people who don't want to break or touch anything or for people with not-so-high courage.

Living with Determination

"There's a special level of comfort between two matching soulds. An unbreakable bond of constant support and closeness. It's when a warm embrace feels so right. Or when two hands fit so snugly. It's a feeling that's hard to define but easy to recognize. And when you find that comfort you just know, you'll never let go... Everybody in this world is scared and sometimes, it takes two scared person to do one brave thing: to fal in love."

“Love defies all laws and reason…it defies all facts…whether it’s right or wrong…it makes people bring forth and end life, and it can send the sanest of people crazy with it. It defies every science and feeling. It makes you feel like you can do anything, like you can touch the skies and defy gravity itself.”

Caged Bird

How high do I have to fly so that I could move away from you?

Even if I move away, I would always want to be looking at you from somewhere.

Coz there's no way I can forget you, even if I try my best.

Even if at my wits end, I would just simply look up a the sky,

Just like a small bird inside a cage, staring up at the great big sky.

Looking for a window, looking for a way, wandering aimlessly ahead.

I want to see you right away, just because I love you so.

Even if I want to run away because I'm scared of being hurt.

Even if my wings are torn apart, I would find another way to you.

You would always be my most important person...

...The very person that I love.

The simplest glance,

The simplest smile,

The simplest look that tells me you know I'm here.

The simplest movements,

The simplest moments, 

The simplest phases that sends me over the edge.

The simplest voices,

The simplest whispers,

The simplest sounds that is music to my ears.

Why, oh why, does these simple things so hard to get?

Why, oh why, does these simple things to hard to forget?

You make it hard not to fall for you.

And I just wish that this world of mine I built for you,

Would never be just a cruel paradise of anguish and pain,

But a place that I could escape from and fall in love in peace.

The Longest Dialogue

"You're scared, but I'll be here for you. Please, let me be the one to hold your hand through the way. Let me be the one to stand by your side through the good and the bad. Through the hard times and good times, I'll never abandon you. I know there is little that I can offer you... since I know you hate me. It must be irritating to have to see the one you hate so much each and every day, and if you want, I'll even make it so that you won't have to see my face. You won't have to hear my voice. But I'll stay close by, guarding you like an angel. You

can yell at me, and scold me all you want if it helps you. You can continue to scream the hurtful and painful words to me until there is nothing left to say. I stay. I'll listen. I won't talk back. I'll be like a good and obedient dog tending to my master. Tell me you want to see me struck by lightening. Tell me that you want to see me freeze under the cold snow. Tell me you want to see me whipped until blood drips from my mouth. Tell me that you wish someone would run me over with a car... with a bus... with a truck. Tell me that you want to shoot me with a gun. Tell me that you want to pierce my heart with a stake while I sleep. I'll love it if it's all that you could say to me. It'll be all that you

have to say to me. You don't have to say anything nice to me. You can say whatever you like, and I'll make it all that I need to hear. I won't cry... I won't throw you out. I'll take it. I'll live through all of it. Chastise me with words of hate, and I'll make you everything that I have. You will be my whole world, my cruel paradise of anguish and pain. Just as long as you are near by, I'll be fine. Break me with words that would tear a wild stallion to pieces. Stay with me. I'll worship you until the day God judges the world. You will be all that I have."

Love Game

Disclaimer: I am inebriated, therefore am struck with English mode. Everything written here was made by my drunken ass, but I think I'm sane enough to make sense.

Are you sure that he/she likes you, or you're just 'feeling' it?

According to some sources, you'd know when someone even has the slightest attraction to you. There are, as people know it, signs. It's the basic psychology of humans to interpret these signals, just as it is basic nature for us to produce them.

Now, the big question is, Are you sure that he/she likes you, or you're just 'feeling' it?

• Everything that goes in between two people starts from the mouth...

While unanimously true, it is unlikely that people would notice this, especially if this person involved is pretty much 'in your inner circle'.  There is a certain level of familiarity that exists between you and this person, causing you to neglect the fact that this, in reality, is a big sign. You'd notice that people talk differently to their friends, colleagues, and other group of people than to those they have the slightest (or the heaviest) attraction to. Most often than not, they will try to cover it, even deny it. Only those who are experienced would be able to hide this sign so well enough it will go unnoticed to the untrained eye.

• There will be no friction unless there are at least two bodies colliding...

This is even harder to decipher. Most people tend to 'not' touch people they are attracted to, as it makes them lose control. Others do the opposite because they can't help it. As with the first case, it is those people who are of high pride - they possess high self control. That, or they respect the person enough not to let them be bothered by their feelings. That, or they can't reach you. That, or they simply cannot. The next case is for those who are 'touchy-feely' type of person. Most often than not, their contacts are slightly, if not much, briefer than normal, or they flinch or do something minuscule before and after the contact.

• You'd have to learn the Inclusion-Exclusion principle...

There are some people who'd rather have their 'crushes' within their network. It comes with territory. They'd rather have them checked than to not see them at all. Others would exclude them from their network because they rather not have any relations to that person (as the line goes, "I would always want to be looking at you from somewhere"). Others include, then exclude. But, you'd notice this very frequently for people who are unstable of their feelings.

Enough said, it will take time for one to know if one really is attracted to you. But there's always one way to know that will never fail you: ask.

Voiceless Soul

I cry in agony as I hold on to my soundless soul. How will I tell you that you meant a lot to me (I never had the chance), and that I harshly regret that I'm no longer able to tell you that from the day we met until now, I never took my eyes away from you and that my heart cried only for your sake?


Empty spaces here are filled with hungry souls
Looking to pack life's gaps and holes


All eyes are on me, I'll do what I do
See if I am heard, or understood by a few


"This time it'll be much different," I tell myself each time.


Can my voice call angels, like your voice calls angels?
Can my words sing to you, like your words sing to me?


My faith on my shoulders can be too heavy to bear
There's the exit and I can't run past your empty stairs


"This time it'll be much different," I tell myself each time.


Full house can seem so empty, these words just fall apart
Dying to be, dying to be a part, and I tell myself each time...

Can my voice call angels, like your voice calls angels?

Can my words sing to you, like your words sing to me?

Can my voice call angels, like your voice calls angels?

Can my words sing to you, like your words sing to me?

Fragments of Solitude

This will be my personal blog. If you want something to think over about, or if you have the time, you can read on all my posts. I write everything here with the intention of it being publicly available. It is on my best interest that you may relate and discuss about how you felt.


I officially open this blog and christened it "Fragments of Solitude". I have named it such because it was really during these times that I could produce such posts, making each post a 'fragment' of the feelings I had the time I was making them. Together, all of them embody the solitude of both the readers and I.


I officially welcome you to this blog. Hope you can enjoy it.